Interesting Musings... at least to me.

So the last couple of weeks I've been interested in Philosophy and Religion and how they affect one another. I personally believe in God, Christ and the Holy Spirit but I wouldn't say that I am Religious. And I also wouldn't say that that is a bad thing. I have a personal relationship with my Redeemer, and I don't think that I "have" to go to a church to make it better. But that is besides the point. My husband is an agnostic. (If you asked him, he would say that he is an atheist...) but if you talk to him and with him about his belief system, you'd realize it's just agnosticism. Lately I've been trying to figure out how it is that so many religions and beliefs can cohabitat on the same planet without some main one thrusting forward and taking dominion over them all. And against common belief Christianity isn't at the fore front anymore. Maybe in some parts of the world, but in others its just as easily Buddism, or Muslim, or even Wicca. So what makes this such a unilaterally diverse subject? I stopped at Border's several times this week and did some research on Philosophy and Religion and found some startling facts. For instance:

• In the year 575 BCE Confucious was born. (The creator and philosophical leader in Chineese history.
• In the year 563 BCE Siddhartha Gautama the creator of Buddhism was born.
• It's estimated that Jesus dying on the Cross didn't happen until roughly 33-30 BCE.
• And it wasn't proven until 725 years after Confucious was born that the earth was indeed round.
• And it took almost 2,000 years for Charles Darwin to come along and proclaim Evolution in 1859.

Now I realize that these may seem like useless peices of knowledge for most people but they blow my mind. I haven't exactly figured out why yet but they do. Just something to do with all of these facts in our history, my personal history and belief system, but with a date stamp on them makes them more stationary in the relative line of life... maybe, but I know that isn't the reason it's blowing my mind either. So, I guess that's food for thought.
While I was studying all of these things I was struck with the dynamic way that God works. When man started to question everything. He didn't do so in a Expansive state of mind... that's to say it wasn't as though one man in Greece contemplated everything in creation and questioned it all. But more it was a questioning of certain aspects in a certain field of wonder. But that the fields were different all across the world at the same time. For instance:

• In Greece, when the Ancients were wondering about math and science.
• The Chineese Philosophers (Confucious) was wondering at the political and sociological aspects
• And the Indian (India) Buddhists were trying to find meaning in spiritual enlightenment.

But I guess what gets me is that all of this was going on hundreds if not thousands of years PRIOR to my Christ coming to earth and dying for my sins. So what was God thinking, or doing, or seeing, during that time that led him to leave us be? And why is it that it took such an act of benevolence for HIS name to be in written history afterwards?

I guess that's just more food for thought as well. I wrote more notes, but I'm going to take a break my fingers hurt and my stomach is a littler queasy.

Ciao,
Jude

Severely Lacking

For all of those out there... (I say all with a sarcastic smirk) that read this blog and desire to finally see a video pertaining my views in a Vlog (video blog) then here you go... this weeks' blog.

Politicians and News casters severely lacking in the this-is-neither-the-time-nor-place-emotion:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3kX6td9Yfkk


For now that is all:

~Jude

A Bee in my Bonnet...

Epiphany! :D

So I know it's been ages since I last wrote in this thing... but what do you expect? It was holiday season... and I was in full on holiday spirit, cooking meals, visiting friends, having parties, and generally being grateful. But alas... the holidays are over, and I was laying in the bath tonight, and picking my way through Jane Eyre, and I just really wanted to write... but I didn't know where to start... and then BAM! It hit me like a lead balloon, my Blog?!! Haha! So here I am... stumbling through yet another addition to my ever growing memoirs? 

(((I am listening to this guy while I am writing to you guys! Brendan James, amazing, truly amazing!)))


So let's go back to November where I left off:
I still haven't found a job, so that's a bust. But its the new year, and I am determined to find something... ANYTHING! Alright so Thanksgiving... Husbands sponsor on his boat invited us to their family dinner, really fun... football, MTG, great food, and awesome people! ( I mean really, you gotta love Cowboy Fans!) But after that was the preparing for the Christmas time fun! I really felt like being fun this year, we found a 6ft Christmas tree, for 20 bucks at a vintage shop, they weren't even really selling it, just moving it from one location to another, but I just fell in LOVE and it was white!! So awesome, so husband and I made some inquires, smiled a lot, and jumped up and down, and we walked away with a White Christmas tree! Ornament shopping was harder... so am I the only one that realized that everything that Walmart, Target, or well anywhere for that matter was glitter sprayed??? Haha! But it turned out great... I meant to take a picture, but you know how that goes... I didn't, I forgot! Hah! Nothing new! We had a great time, I want to send out a special thanks to the husband's friend's wife (HFW) that lives across the way, she is really awesome and shopping with her is like shopping with me! Slow, tedious, and fun so much fun!!! Haha! Speaking of HFW , she put on this truly great spread with her brother for Christmas lunch! Mexican food, and Kinect for Xbox... cant go wrong huh? I had a blast!
So Christmas night I tried my hand at a Christmas dinner traditional style... a chicken, a turkey and all the sides that fit accordingly... and go figure for my third roasted chicken I failed and for my first ever roasted Turkey I succeeded! I loved it, infact it lasted a week in left overs... and I am pretty sure that the company liked it too, though I'm not sure because everyone was so stuffed from that awesome Mexican Lunch! :D
So it's after the new year... after the Husbands and my first year anniversary, after our first Christmas, our first Thanksgiving, and our second New Year together, and I am starting to truly understand the richness that comes with being married, the great feeling knowing that somebody is there. Not sometimes, not a call away, or a hug when you hurt. But the ALL the TIME feeling, that comes with the highs and lows the in betweens and the emotional rollercoaster that is marraige, he is amazing and in the new year I want to celebrate my Husband for everything he is and does, he is not my other half, but more like that inspiring force that gives me strength... I love you Husband, and if you ever read this, I know you will know that this is only words, That I hope I show you the amount of love I have for you, everyday! One year down darling, another eternity to go. 
Now on a much stronger note I want to address something that has been a re-acurring theme the last few months, for those of my friends and family that know I am a strong President Obama supporter, and try to come at me or toward me with alligations or remarks regarding his term leading this country here is what I have to say, then that is it. If anyone feels the need to bring it up again to me again I will just send them here: okay! (I'm actually copy and pasting this from a comment I made earlier this evening) :

""Doesn't mean that the President is anything less, we all fall for the lies that people place in front of us on a daily basis, why should I hold my President to a standard that I know I cannot follow? So he chose wrong... so did Bush for most of the war, Clinton for his choice in bedmates, and the Sr. Bush for most of the Gulf War originally... we always vote for the person we see that best fits in the chair at the pentagon or the White House... but we forget a lot of the time that they are human... people just like you and me, but they have the decisions that out way anything I will ever have to face... am I giving President Obama any slack for what he's going through? Maybe a little, because honestly if anybody thought that he was going to fix Healthcare, the economy, world hunger and world peace, trade relations, the war and national security not to mention the national debt and housing crisis, in the first term or even his entire (maybe two terms) of his election... then they were blind and a little naive. No one can fix that, it isn;t an over night or even a year thing. It's something we are all going to have to work on, and so what if he tried to fix health care first? Maybe he thought that was the best course of action... he had his reasons... and maybe other people are starting to back slide on backing him up, but I'm not going too. He is trying his hardest... and I dont see him taking 13 week vacations to Crawford every 3 to 8 weeks.""


Alright, I think that's enough for now, being that this is my first blog back. You've all got enough to read... love you all, Happy New Year, and many blessings throughout your many traditions, and lives! 
-Jude

The Big "What if?"...

I'm sitting here at Borders and I'm reading about the Words of God, in the Word of God. Just studying some major and minor things in and throughout the Bible, and I keep seeing a magazine on the rack over by the counter with Jake Gyllenhal and Anne Hathaway, now I don't know if you've seen the new cover of the Entertainment, but wow, it's a doozy. They are both naked, or at least top-less and they just look so amazing. So at ease, and it makes me wonder. What if? What would it be like if I was that comfortable with my body. What if I was able to be at ease with everyone around me, so completely. And that is just the tip of the iceberg. So I get up and read the magazine article and it's actually really cute. Anyway, so I continue on with my reading and writing, and these two older women come along, and they are loud but not obtrusive. And they are talking about school, and how they are teachers, well I think one was a teacher and the other was a sub, but they were talking about the students that they teach and or taught, and how the sub was studying to get her masters, so that she could teach. And it just made me wonder. What is the moment? How do I know that I want to be anything in particular? All I've ever known for sure is that I want to own a bookstore. That is truly it. But I know that I need and should have a career prior to that, and honestly it isn't fees-able with the Husband in the military. So I need to have a career that is able to travel with me as I travel with him. And I've always thought about teaching, well okay, I've occasionally thought about teaching, with a passion. But just as often I think about teaching and know that I wouldn't be that great at it. It isn't pity talking or lack of confidence, it's just the fact that I know that I have what it takes to teach, what I lack is the ability to deal with children of all ages on a regular basis. Not to mean that I am not a people person, or even a kid on the inside a little. (or a Lot!) But when I think about teaching I think about High School, but I never had that "one in a million" great high school experience where I look back on it and go, "ahhh great time's"... I look back and thank God that I don't ever have to go through that again. And then I think of Middle School, but that just makes me want to throw up in my mouth, because I would probably punch a kid before the first week was up. But then I walk around the Borders Store, or the Barnes and Noble, and often I am just happy with the thought of teaching little ones. Elementary, but then it strikes me that I wouldn't know where to begin? Honestly I know that the college courses would help me, but that doesn't make me want to teach them anymore or any less. So here I am back at ground zero with my thought process. I know that I want to do something that involves talking to others, helping others out, giving back to the world, and provide knowledge. Those are the serious applications to a serious issue in my mind. But other then those articles of "it must of this" 's... I have no idea. And I don't want to be that student that me teacher reminisce about ten years from now, or even two years from now and have them say "That Jude, she had such potential." "What is she doing now?" "Waitressing, and raising three kids..." That terrifies me... So alas, I leave with this. What if?

Generally A Grumpy Guss:

So the husband I and I went and saw Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1, last night at 12:20am. Now he has slept for four hours prior to the movie woke up to McDonald's on his night stand, and generally just had a easy time. I woke up at 930am yesterday morning.I had been doing things all around the house, and had been fighting a major headache that wanted to launch itself into migraine territory. By the time he came home to take his nap before the movie, I had almost called it quits. But I perservered and we went, and it was incredible. Seriously. Anyway, well he decided that after the movie he just wanted me to take him to work because he was afraid that if he were to go home and go to sleep he would miss his 630am muster. So alas after trying tirelessly to get him to see reason, we ended up taking him to work. Well after getting there, and driving back, I got home roughly around 530am. I want to shoot myself for that. Anyways, I got home, took trash out, (which was a mindblowing chore when your body is telling you that you are one stupid S.O.B. let me tell ya.) walked up the stairs and passed out. I forgot to not turn off my alarm and alas the damn thing went off at 730am. So here I am, wide wake, (probably because I had had half a Double Shot Espresso to stay awake for the ride home earlier. And having tried and failed to go back to sleep, I decided to get up and tidy up the house. Noon came around and I got a package from my Uncle with some clothing that he had had of mine from a year and a half ago when I got out of BootCamp. After opening everything, and seeing that I didn't fit in my Jeans anymore, I decided to take it happily and go work out and try to get back in the good shape I was in forever-not-so-long-ago. I went to the gym down the block and worked out for roughly an hour and twenty minutes, and then decided that I would continue with my self imposed teaching/learning thing that I'm doing right now, so that I don't become some doltish moron when I do eventually go back to college. So thus I end up at Borders and study until 345ish, I leave come home, decide to go ahead and do the kitty litter and just as I lug the big heavy thing up the steps and through the threshold my husband calls and wants me to come pick him up. I do, and arrive an hour later after copious amounts of needless traffic, and start the return journey, now I don't know if it's just that I respect my husband so much that it makes me nervous when he's in the car or if I just go stupid but I always drive brilliantly when I'm alone and like a complete maniac when he's with me. After nearly dying three times we get home and he passes out, but now I'm on a tangent and want to fold all the laundry and clean up the bedroom and clean up the living room, and clean up in the kitchen, and oh it's been three hours since husband fell asleep maybe he would like some dinner, so let me make some spaghetti. To which after it's made, (and its truly one of the best times I've made it), he freaks out at the sight of it, turns over and goes back to sleep. And here I am roughly 2 hours under my belt for sleep in the last 26 hours, and I still don't want to go to sleep yet because now I might as well wait until 10 and then sleep like a log/baby, through till morning. So there... that explains why I am a sure fire grumpy guss tonight. The End.

Creeper in the Stacks:

So there I was reading; English and Grammar: A Basic Refresher, A People's History of the United States, A People's History of the United States 1492-2000, A Severe Decline: Remaking our Constitution, and Algebra: the Mathematics You Didn't Want to Remember. I'm minding my own business and taking notes, not that I'm in college or any school for that matter, but I've been feeling rather stupid of late and just wanted to do some refreshing... I plan on making this a daily thing, but we shall see if I truly want to handle the self imposed homework... in fact I'm failing as a self imposed teacher/student while I do this blog I have 5 math problems and a 1 pg paper on Nathaniel Bacon and a 1 pg paper on American Slavery and peoples rights... haha I suck.
But alas, the point to my great heading, so there I was reading and taking notes while sitting at the table in Borders' Cafe, when I look up for a moment to take my mind off of the sadness of slavery. And there is this woman, staring at me. It isn't that "oh hmmm... drifting off into space" staring. Or the "oh she has a pretty hair do" staring... but the ever more awkward "she is sexy and I want to rip all her clothing off" staring. Having been studying for over an hour I hadn't even noticed that she had sat down, or for how long she had indeed been staring at me. But now I felt the urge to look back to the books and seemly seem as though I was studying for my life. A few minutes later I sneeked a peek and she was still staring but this time while I was catching a glimpse she got up and starting pack her things. As I was giving myself a mental pat on the back for getting away unscathed, the chair across from me scraps the floor and she sat down, Oh My God.
She just smiled and asked "I saw that you were studying pretty much everything I am... and Oh! look at your notes, I bet you are really smart, huh? Well I could use some serious help in History and Politics, and huh... your math is wrong here... here ... and here... why don't I help you study that and you can help me study this?" I hadn't gotten any words together in my head, let alone out of my mouth and she was attacking my math paper. And handing her history notes to me. I looked over them and stayed quiet, just adjusting a few things here and there, rewriting somethings for her, and generally being as quiet as possible. Occassionally showing her my WEDDING ring, but she didn't make any comment.
Around ten minutes later I was thinking of ways to get out of the Cafe and run with my tail between my legs and not look back when she pulls out her wallet and casually mentions that I look like a hot tea kind of girl, I didn't say anything, and she smiled and was like... alright I'll guess and you better like it. And up she went to bye TEA! I didn't mean for that to happen but I still hadn't put any words together for a yes, no, maybe, or What the Hell Is Going ON HERE! She came back with this ABSOLUTELY delicious smelling hot tea, it turns out that I think its like my new favorite, something with pumpkin and cream and yummm... she saw me take a sip and smile and she clapped her hands and said how she knew I would like it. After showing me some of my problems that I had gotten wrong and where I had gone wrong, she asked me to explain what I thought about her history paper... I told her that she needed to expand here, get rid of this there, and just generally delve deeper into the topic and not be so vast. She sighed, I mean a literal, "oh my goodness...your so dreamy when you talk... i wish i could use your mouth..." you get the point, sigh. She waited another 30 seconds and then started packing up her things and talking about what school she went to, what he name was and how she wouldn't mind studying with me again. THEN SHE HANDED ME HER NUMBER, and kissed the back of my hand. And like that she was gone. I'm terrified to go back to Borders, and interested in how my math problems turn out! Anyways, that was my random story of life for the day... what about yours?
-Jude

A Limit of Three or Less:

It looks like there was a tree war outside. I LOVE IT! There are yellow and red and orange and brown and green leaves EVERYWHERE!!! Awe, the sweet and lively beauty that is Autumn. I just bought my very first cook book, and I can't wait to start cooking from it, but I noticed that it has a bunch of "hmmmm..." recipes. The ones where the first thing you see is the photo and you think , "Wow, that looks amazing!" and then you precede to look at the ingredients or even the name and you suddenly think, "Wow, that... sounds disgusting." I know I should think outside the box, and probably cook it anyways, but really y'all "Duck with green sauce." but the green sauce is made of like lemon and celery and Avocados. YUCK! Don't get me wrong I love lemon and celery and avocados but not together or honestly in any combination with each other... Anyways, I'm happy because it also has simple recipes like dough for bread and crusts. And it has simple cookie recipes for yummy yummy oatmeal and chocolate chip cookies! I'm thinking about becoming a linguistics student at the local college. I really love learning languages and how they fit together and how they work, what the differences are between this and that, and how they sound whether they flow or are stilted. And I could get paid the big bucks for it... right? And that is it for now, those are the three topics in this post. Time to hit the sheets for another hour of sleep and wake up to a interview and a beautiful day! Many Blessings!